lost. and never found again.

i was once lost and now once more.
all i needed its just care and hugsss.
no photos or pictures for this.
purely my feelings for now.
'm tired.
but i have him.
he told me that he will hug me from back and tell me that everything gonna be alright.
i wish he is here right now.
i want to cry but i have to be strong.
i don't want to be a girl that cry easily.
it makes me feel that 'm weak.

i don't feel the love anymore.

'm feeling lost,
once again.
and this time.
i might not able to find the way out.


'm numb.

we are awesomeee!

                                                                together, we rock! (:

we had fun yesterday.

i truly experienced the team work of us.

and now.

i understand that together, we stand.

well, this happened during the process of the game.

we, the organizer.

drew the face of participants.

sowwwwiiieeee. :(

hopefully you guys had fun. (:

because we had fun!

cam whore time! 

did this during end of the closing party.

almost everyone went back homee.

hee. :D 

nothing better to do.

awesommeee students of course with the awesomeee lecturers. <3

to all my fellow classmates, you guys did well! it was awesome!

and to lecturers, thanks for giving us such opportunity to come out with such activity. 

<3 

what a morning.

                                                       we went out for breakfast together.

well, we were talking. 

we talk about,

almost everything.

in our

past,

present

and even 

future.

and, i do realized that the wound in my heart was never recover.

i thought its alright.

but its not.

thanks, apple.

she treated me all this. (:

we went for our second stop. (:

with her,

we spend a lot.

but the time we spend together.

it can't be valued. 

money, is important.

but,

you can't buy FRIENDSHIP

with money.

what are words?

this guy did not win for the american idol.
but his story behind this song touches the heart of everyone.
his love towards his loved one is more than everything.
he did not leave her when she needed him the most.

love,
he knows the meaning of love.
he knows that as a guy,
he should keep the promises,
he knows he should be there when she needed him.

to him,
she is an angel.

night time,
he will be there for her.

"What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone"

true love,

nothing will break it apart.

it will grow stronger through obstacles. 

i was born to tell you i love you.

you are the best thing i never knew i needed,

and now you are here.

this song always remind me of the time i had in my college.

it was the time after i left my high school.

when i was in my high school, 'm always curious about the life in college.

i don't have to wear school uniform,

no school rules,

don't have to wake up early in the morning.

and, 

i can bring my phone to the class.

well,

the first year in college,

it was full of memories.

happy, 

sad, 

angry,

disappointment.

in the one year time.

i went through all this.

now,

'm in a new place with new life.

and,

i hope that everything will be alright.

nothing, no one will stop us.

                                                 nothing, no one going to stop us to go crazy.

our first stop,

starbucks coffee.

she had her breakfast and we started our crazy moment from there. (:

we weren't alone. 

there are people around.

but,

nothing going to stop us.

when she is down,

i wish that with my stupid face i can cheer her up.

i don't want to see her sad,

i wish that she can be happy all the time.

i want her to know that,

i will be there for her when she need me.

some time for myself. (:

when she is busy with her ipad and texting.

we paid 20 cents,

and....

cam whore in the toilet.

i just can't believe that we are nuts till that level.

we ignore those people that walk in and out of the toilet.

even the janitor that cleans the toilet.

what to do?

she was down.

and,

i don't like it when she is sad.

our girls time. 

we know each other for less than 2 months,

and yet,

we can be crazy.

we can even cry together.

13.05.11

friday.

back to college for some discussion.

and,

have some indoor shooting in the class.

oh my gosh! 

we were freezing in the class.

and and! 

the whole level only left both of us.

she cried.

when we were talking and chatting.

and i did.

be strong.

life,

always out of expectation.

it will not be as smooth as we wish.

it is full of obstacles.

and we learn our lesson from it.

and,

we grow up.

be stronger

and 

tougher.

where am i? is this me?

                                                           i came to this world alone.

in this journey, i went through hard time. i lost myself in the process of growing up and the time of mending the broken heart. i totally lost the original me. well, maybe not the original me but the me used to be. i tried to find back myself. i thought i will be able to drag the lost me out of the jungle but at the end i completely lost it. i couldn't find it anymore. 

the new me. 

i don't know.  

please hold me. 

the strength will make me stronger. let me feel better.

at least i know that 'm not alone.

i know that someone is there to hold me when 'm down.

someone is there to grab me when i fall.

who will? will you?

i wish i could cry like a baby. everyone will be there to comfort me.

i wish i could have a reason to cry. 

i wish to.

but i couldn't find a reason that i can cry.

maybe,

its time for me to be strong

be TOUGH.

i need hugs.

any free hugs for me?

a hug that will warm me up.

a hug will tell me that "i will not give up on you"

a hug.

just a hug.

is there any?

is there anyone?

is there anyone there to tell me that everything will be alright? 

is someone there will tell me that "i will be here for you"

is there?

just a word, a sentence that will make me feel alright.

or maybe not.

life,

is always full of obstacles.

we grow up,

through obstacles.

and,

i always believe that there will be rainbow

after rain. (: