queenieyang

queenieyang

Monday, September 27, 2010

you end our dream.

you never gave me a chance to explain. all you know is just walk away and never listen to me. what you see doesn't mean everything. sigh. you end our dream.

Monday, September 20, 2010

welcome to my life. (:

do you ever feel like breaking down?
do you ever feel like out of place?
like somehow you just don't belong
and no one understand you.

no, you don't know what its like
when nothing feels alright
you don't know what its like, to be like me.

to be hurt, to feel lost, to be left out in the dark.
to be kicked, when you are down.

these are part of the lyrocs. my life is always up and down and its not easy to be and no one knows what is the feeling of being me. (:

Sunday, September 19, 2010

my outing to oneu with them. (:

shopping! girls' nature. (:


caps at extreme. (:




nice dress. wanted to buy but i hardly wear it. so forget about it. teehee.



its my job to remember th parking lot. aiks! the smart way. (: muahaha.

had vietnam food for lunch and went back around 5. lost the way home and slept in the car. everyone was tired. (: i didn't get to buy anything. >.< but i still enjoy the time i spent with my family. 

here i come again.

love is a temporary madness. it erupts like and earthquake and then subsides. and when it subsides you have to make decision. you have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it inconceivable that you should ever part. because this is what love is. love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, and it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. i got this from some website and i don't remember which. so ya. i think it means something and it does. (: and i always believe that everyone deserve to have someone's love, care and protection. every girl deserve their own true love. (:

meaning of queenie (:

oh my gosh! i didn't know my name has its own meaning. i was bored and i decided to google about my name. i was expecting no results but something came out! hmm. let me see. my name means royal lady. hahahahahahahahahahaha! xD the origin of my name is believed to be old english. lol! now i know. and there is a movie named queenie. teehee. my name is so nice and popular. thanks to my mum. i remembered she told me why she gave me this name. she saw a movie when me still in her stomach, and the actress name queenie. this actress is a real strong and sweet girl. she overcome all the obstacles in her life and that time my dear mum decided to give the name queenie to the little girl in her stomach which is me! (: my mum wants me to be strong and face all the obstacles, up and down in my life and i will. i will never waste auch a nice name my mum gave me. thank you, mummy. (:

Thursday, September 9, 2010

happytwomonths. (:

090910. what a nice date and its our two months too. (: the longest relationship i had since my college started. haha! maybe he is the one i have been finding. he is the one can make me stay and be good. hee. but still a normal day i have to go through. tomorrow is hari raya. the malay's day. i went out today to shop with alice. we went 3 places, pyramid, time square and sungai wang. i finally get to try the toilet bowl meal. whee! the photos are with alice. sigh. but i get to camwhore when i was in her car and drop my phone under the chair. hee. a tiring day yet fun. (: i believe tomorrow will be another tiring day because relatives will be coming and gather at grandma's house. >.<

hee. got this while on the way home in alice's car. (:

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

change for the one you love.

relationship is a connection between two individuals. usually people in a relationship tend to influence each other, share their thoughts and feelings, and engage in activities together. to me, relationship is something easy to gain and easy to lose but hard to maintain. it depends on the both individual that involved in the relationship. i had pain through my past relationships but now 'm tough enough to stand up and have one again. i realized that a long relationship ain't easy to have. i have friends with years of relationship with the same guy but at the end is a sad ending. i don't want this happen to my current one. he always tell me that he never was a good one and never. i believe that relationship can really influence someone, so if you really love her or him, you can always change to a better one and  have a better and longer relationship. everyone learn throughout their life. everyone does include me. (: and one more thing, its easy to love someone but its not easy to find one that really love you and care about you. always appreciate the one and never regret in the future. i remembered someone used to tell me last time that do not regret in the future, be with the one you loved. think properly, the one you are with now is it the one you really love and need? is he or she the one you really want? love can be sweet and it can be hurtful too. its up to you the way you see it and handle it. what i learnt from my past is appreciate now and never regret in the future. it might not work out right but when you look back in the future, you will not be down and regret saying why didn't i appreciate it last time. (:

<3 the bond and connection.

Monday, September 6, 2010

if our love was a story book. (:

if our love was a story book,
 we would meet on the very first page,
the last chapter would be about how 'm thankful for the life we've made. (:
 you don't even know how very special you are.
you just walked in one of my dream,
 you are everything good in my life.
sometimes, i still can't believe that you're mine. <3



i edited this from the lyrics of breathless by shayne ward. its really meaningful and i love this song. (: this is for you. and i mean it. every words and sentences. thanks for being with me. thanks for tolerating with me when 'm down and thanks for forgiving when i did something wrong.

Saturday, September 4, 2010

the place and the smell that attracts me the most. (:


oh ya! this is the place i love the most. (: the coffee smell from it just attracts me.


cooling and chilling. the best drink during hot weather. (:

it turns out something better. (:

you all must be wondering what happened to my old layout. haha! well. my friend "screw" it up. but at the end it turns out not that bad. (: its still camera. hee. i actually freaked her out at the end. i didn't sign in. xD now my new layout is much simpler and clean. although the old one is nice but its alright. time for a change. a change to a better one. (: hee. so from today onwards i will be using this new layout. thanks, natalie. for "screwing" up my layout. is not that bad now. (: sorry for freaking you out. hee. you owe me starbucks coffee and cupcake! (:
i want this! natalie, thanks. (:

Thursday, September 2, 2010

sugar and spice. (:

life is always up and down. i always say that its like the roller coaster but now not anymore. roller coaster's track is always is the same but my life is not always the same. just like sugar and spice. sometimes its sweet just like sugar, sometimes its bitter like bitter gourd. but no matter what it is i still have to go through it and all these obstacles make me grow stronger and tougher. it might sound easy but when come to real life it ain't easy. i still cry when 'm sad. i still hurt myself when i can't take the stress. and i know that 'm not grown up yet. 'm still stuck like some small kid. never know how to solve my problems with the right way especially when it comes to relationship. i have been through some but till now i still can't make things right. i feel so stupid and tired of myself. things just can't stop happening to me. maybe god gave me this to make me stronger. i been telling myself this will be the last time i cry but it will never end. i want to be strong. all i want is something i never had. (: