the pieces of memories.

photos, are the memories that we left behind. looking back at them and i realizes that who i met in my life and what i have. looking back at them, i will smile, laugh or tears. it is the moment we had together no matter where we are and who we are. family background, age, races. it doesn't matter to us.

we will never know what will happen tomorrow but all i know is i have them with me TODAY.

nice food, we share. 

it always 3. because we are always together. (:

we don't care what others think about us. as long as we are happy with it. (:

we met different people from different walk of life here. there is where we learn. 

the first time we met each other was 21st march and till today; our one month 9 days friendship. they went through the tears, joy and laughter with me. they saw me crying when i was heart broken. they saw the bad side of me. with them, i can be who am i. i don't have to pretend to be another one. they will tell me, "they will be there for me" the future we will not know and how our friendship going to be we will not know too. the obstacles waiting ahead for us we will not know too. hopefully, our friendship will be strong enough to make it through. the 3 crazies will always be there for each other and cheer each other up. we will be there together to share the joy, laughter and tears together. can we? (:

the pieces of memories of us. 

to my another 2 crazies, thank you. (:

heart. <3

the end of another story.

although it only last for few weeks or month but it still hurt me when he just walk off and left me alone there. but through this i know how much my friends cared about me. they were angry at me because i did something they don't like but they are still there when i need them. i cried so badly. but i end up in laughter. (: well, we took some photos after that.

trying to cheer myself up with them. (:

the emo me with the black jacket. :D

drink water also camwhore. =.=

i just love them. they are the one there when i cry badly. :'(

once again, and this time my courage totally gone. TOTALLY GONE. and i believe that this time will be hard to find it back. i need someone that can prove to me that he is worthy to have my courage back. and i did something really bad today. something i been not touching for a long time and today... 'm sorry, my body.  i promise that this will be the last time i will be hurting you k? 

relationship; been getting hurt in the process of finding the real one. maybe he is not here yet and i might have to get hurt till i found him. the one will cheer my every moment of my life and he is the one will have my courage back. just give me sometime, the wound will recover when time pass. i believe. (:

don't cry anymore. everything will be alright. 

be a strong girl, queenie.

should be ms strong. (:

i miss you, grandpa.

i was looking at the sky and wondering how are you doing in the other side of the world. looking at us from above? i miss you a lot, grandpa. thanks for the love you gave us. although we didn't spend much time together but the love for you never less than any. and all of us miss you a lot and love for you never ever less. (: 

i took this photo before you left us. this photo will always remind me of you. <3 

i miss you, grandpa. (:

friendship. (:

i was once hurt and betrayed by friends. and slowly i decided not to trust anyone but myself. but i was found by a girl but now 'm no longer near her. although the distance didn't really bring us apart but slowly we chat less and less. she told me is time to let me independent and yes, i know its time for me to get up myself if i fall again. but i know that she still will always be there for me. thanks, woman. you let me know a lot of things that i never know. you let me see the bigger picture of life. but i really miss the time when we chat through messages and you will tell me when you are not happy or anything that annoyed you. 'm still here for you when you need me.

i was send to this new place. i cried on the first night when i came here. i know no one and my mum is away from me and my bestie is 4 hours journey away from me. :( i was so lost. i felt like i was dumped in a really strange place. but after few days, months i found 2 girls that go really crazy with me. we can laugh, gossip and cam whore with the webcam. i was really grateful that i found them here. in future, we might be separated but the sweet memories will always be with me. (:

hearts and love for you guys! 

another crazy moment we had together.

well well, 3 of us were sick but yet we still can go hyper with the webcam. :D that's why i named us as the 3 crazies. <3

we are just warming up. (:

here we go. wait! more to go.

'm the one that always got bullied. :(

hearts for those spending time and read my blog. (:

out of idea what to pose. 

there goes my face. :'(

aww. :(

i can't post all the photos here. there are 95 photos in total. oh my god! we did that in less than 30 minutes. 'm really grateful that i found them in this new place. my loneliness is gone. they cheer me up when my day is down. they let me learn to trust friendship once more. and let me know that in my journey i won't be alone. i will have them with me. they let my college be much more fun no matter how boring is the lecturers or class. and they never know how much i care and love them. (: 

now, i slowly open myself once more and trust them. they let me know what is friendship and how to appreciate them. friendship is just like relationship. we need to know how to handle it with the right way and it will last long. <3 

praying hard that everything will be alright.

friends,

warm me with their presence,
trust me with their secrets,
remember me in their prayers.

relationships,
went through fews and still searching for the right one.
hopefully he will be the last stand of mine.
hopefully he will be the one that can make me stay,
he, will be the one i can trust with my dark past and secrets.
he, will be the one i can rest on when 'm tired.
he, will be the one that i can hold till the end.

singapore birthday trip, day 2. (:

good morning. (: i had a good night sleep but but lyn kicked me in the night. :( well, she warned me.

i don't know what is this but is damn nice. have it chilled. (:

this is what happened when i waited cab for almost an hour. what? singapore worse than malaysia.

well, we somehow went hyper at the road side. 

finally we reach our destination after waited for hours and walking, raffles. 

went swensens for dinner treat from aunt hannah with my two little cousins. 

nice.

mango ice cream cake.

birthday kiss from my little cousin. (:

well, we went to take some sticker photos together. (: and the results was awesome.

well, reach back malaysia around 6 and went out for birthday dinner with family. sadly my mummy couldn't join us for my birthday and i miss her a lot. i called her night time. 

yay yay! another birthday cake for me. thanks, papa and mama. (:

there goes my 19th birthday. first time celebrating it without my mum at my side and out of malaysia. the best birthday i ever had. 

*sign off*

'm 19 officially! oh no! am i getting old? or mature? :D

3 days, 2 days, one more day.... i was counting down to turn 19. i don't know whether i should be happy or not. well, 'm more excited about my trip to singapore with my loved one. (: went there to meet my cousy back from new zealand with her bf, then celebrate my birthday earlier there.

the 6 course me 'm craving for! <3

the starter. yummy. :D

the sharkfin melon soup. awesomenesss. 

the best fruit salad i ever tried.

here come the main entree but 'm starting to feel full. oh no!

i will never forget the taste of this tea!

the leave in the tea. (:

here come the last one. *phew*

at the end of the 6 course meal, both of us were so full and we walk like some pregnant lady. and we head to our next destination which is

SMU! nice university. wish i have the luck to be one of the students in there. all smarty pants are in there. :'(

skip, skip, skip. here come the night part. went to bugis, plan was meeting cousin from new zealand around 7 but everything delayed. thanks to the flight. well, we went to shop and hang around like some idiots and we found something to kill our time!

cam whore machine. muahahahaha. :D

(:

cam whore first while lyn is on the phone with another lyn we are waiting for. (:

went crystal jade for dinner. (:

*burp* full. hee.

dinner was rushing and i can't wait to go home for 2 reasons. one, me and lyn bought something to pamper ourselves and two, 'm really tired. we walk around the singapore today by our own legs. :( wait, still got few photos before end this.

this is how we pamper ourselves after a long and tiring day.

and and and!

got this 2 tee i wanted from lyn for birthday present. thanks! <3

finally, the end of the first day in singapore. really tiring but i have fun touring around only both of us. (: tomorrow will be another tiring day. *lights off* good night.

what has relationship become?

what is relationship?
   relationship is a connection and trust between 2 per
what is love?
   i believe it is one of the most difficult question for the mankind.
love is patient, love s kind. it had no envy.

but what happened to love and relationship?
it became a tool to hurt each other?
it became something scary and not valuable anymore?